Day One

Today is not exactly day one, but it’s one of the first days of many I have in front of me to work on trying to restart my life in the direction I want and stop just surviving.

It didn’t look like much, to be fair and honest. I woke up, forgot to take my meds, made a reservation for a uhaul, ate lunch, and then took a very long nap.

The hard part is I don’t really know what I want to do, and what comes naturally right now is doing nothing except sleeping. Am I depressed? Am I burnt out? Just tired? I’m not all together very sure.

I haven’t done much packing or cleaning, and I haven’t rode my bike around in a bit. I should get up and go on a walk tomorrow. Get the blood flowing and maybe get some more fresh air.

The hope is that it’ll get easier in the right environment and life will be more fullfilling with the right people around me. It’s a bit of a shot in the dark but it’s better than another bitter, lonely winter here.

My brother recently offered for me to go hang out and stay in his spare RV or trailer that he has to get some sunlight down in Texas and get out of the cold. I think I’ll take him up on it after winter. I need to get settled down in the new location first.

I’m glad I have my partner for all this. She’s been my rock. I should really do more to show her how much I appreciate her once it’s all said and done.

Thanks for reading my ramblings into the great unknown for today. Goodnight, lads.